my dearest girlfriends

i feel terribly much like i need a get away.

i feel like i need to talk to some people about what i am feeling, about what's going on.

but i feel like there's this need to be strong.

this need to not need people and i can stand on my own.

what's worse is i really feel that i am on my own.

For as much as vincent, connie and carol can be there for me, they cant be there for me all the time.

& Honestly, i aint doing well.

i feel terribly much like i need a get away.

but i feel like i cant afford indulging in this get away.

have i not rested enough? is what im going through, really that heavy a burden to bear?

if im honest to myself, i guess i really am that weak.

for if i were truly strong, this would not have been considered to be a burden to me.

something i want so bad to simply ignore and run away from.